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EXiT

Subbed by hilyafadhilah


Composer: caco-2
Vocal: GUMI
http://www.nicovideo.jp/watch/sm27732198


~Kanji~
掴んだ砂 固く握り絞めては
進まない時計を捨てられないのは
自分にひと欠片の勇気があれば
さぁ、何処に行こうか?

背負わされた掟、消えない傷を
包帯で隠して 皆と同じさ
潰された虫を振り返ることなく
さぁ、逃げ出すんだ

運ばれた虫ケラは
バラバラに引き裂かれて
潤いをもたらしてく
意識が飛んだ身体
魂なんて無いのに
僕は誰なんだろう

僕を解き放って 遠く遠くまで
生きる意味をかき集めていれば
いつか思い描いた未来
奇跡なんて待てないんだ
この声が枯れるまで叫び続けていれば
ほら 道は開かれると弱虫の僕に
言い聞かせて犯した罪なんて忘れ去って

掲げた拳は何処までも高く
動きだす時間は過去を置いていく
残された過ちが僕を見ている
もう居場所は無い

落ち着けば大丈夫
傷痕はいつか消えると
何度も繰り返して
ぼろぼろだった自分を
心の底に刻んで
震える膝を押さえて

抱き抱えた希望
それにすがる醜い僕が
無くした規律を書き留めてたら

こんなことにならなかったんだって
自分に言い聞かせて
理想の結末を信じて
いつか思い描いた未来

奇跡なんてあり得ないんだ
僕の声が届かないようにって
裏切ることで自分を保って
憧れた姿 誰にも
見つからない場所で眺め続けてる


~Romaji~

tsukanda suna kataku nigirishimete wa
susumanai tokei o suterarenai no wa
jibun ni hitokakera no yūki ga areba
sā, doko ni yukō ka?

seowasareta okite, kienai kizu o
hōtai de kakushite minna to onaji sa
tsubusareta mushi o furikaeru koto naku
sā, nigedasun da

hakobareta mushikera wa
barabara ni hikisakarete
uruoi o motarashiteku
ishiki ga tonda karada
tamashii nante nai noni
boku wa dare nandarō

boku o tokihanatte tōku tōku made
ikiru imi o kakiatsumete ireba
itsuka omoiegaita mirai
kiseki nante matenain da
kono koe ga kareru made sakebitsuzukete ireba
hora michi wa hirakareru to yowamushi no boku ni
iikikasete okashita tsumi nante wasuresatte

kakageta kobushi wa dokomademo takaku
ugokidasu jikan wa kako o oite yuku
nokosareta ayamachi ga boku o mite iru
mō ibasho wa nai

ochitsukeba daijōbu
kizuato wa itsuka kieru to
nandomo kurikaeshite
boroboro datta jibun o
kokoro no soko ni kizande
furueru hiza o osaete

dakikakaeta kibō
sore ni sugaru minikui boku ga
nakushita kiritsu o kakitometetara

konna koto ni naranakattan datte
jibun ni iikikasete
risō no ketsumatsu o shinjite
itsuka omoiegaita mirai

kiseki nante arienain da
boku no koe ga todokanai yōnitte
uragiru koto de jibun o tamotte
akogareta sugata darenimo
mitsukaranai basho de nagametsuzuketeru


~Translation~

Please do not use this translation for English subbing. Thank you for your understanding.

Scooping up a fistful of sand, I clench my hand until it hurts.
Though my watch has stopped, I can’t bring myself to throw it away,
as I’m still lacking that one tiny piece of courage.
All right, where shall I go now?

There are the commandments I’m forced to bear, and wounds that refuse to heal,
but once I’ve covered them up with bandage, I can be the same as everyone else.
All right, let’s not worry about the bugs that’ve been squashed to death
and just concentrate on escaping from here.

All those pitiful insects that were brought here
were torn to shreds, beyond recognition—
all for the sake of some sick entertainment.
Their consciousness was completely gone.
Not that they had a soul in the first place.
Who am I, then, I wonder?

I shall set myself free and travel a long, long way.
Once I’ve found enough of the meanings of living,
perhaps I’ll be able to realize the future I once envisioned.
I can’t waste my time waiting for a miracle to happen.
If I keep crying out until my voice grows hoarse,
a path will open for me—or so I try to convince the coward in me,
wiping from my memory the sins I’ve committed.

I’ll raise my fist, high and proud.
The watch is ticking again, making a clean break with the past,
though I can still feel the watchful eyes of the mistakes I’ve left behind.
There’s no longer a place for me anywhere.

Everything will be okay, I just need to calm down,
and my scars will eventually fade away—
that’s what I tell myself over and over again.
I’ll engrave in the deepest part of my mind
the memory of myself, all beat-up and ragged,
as I try to steady my shaking knees.

How pathetic I must have looked
as I kept holding on to the hopes I cherished.
If only I’d written down the lost ordinance,

things wouldn’t have turned out this way—
or so I try to convince myself,
believing in an ideal ending,
hoping to realize the future I once envisioned.

Miracles don’t exist, and in the same way,
my voice won’t be heard anywhere—or so I’ve been told.
I’ve chosen betrayal as the price for keeping my own life,
so here I am in a place where no one can find me,
thinking all the while of the person I hope to become.

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